The Countdown

Less than a month.. that is how much time I have left until I leave. I feel scared, nervous, excited, frightened, happy, sad, anxious, and about a million other things all that once. Many of my friends are moving this week back to apartments and dorms preparing for another school year in the familiar places. I know some of them envy me and my adventures but in some ways right now I envy them, one main reason actually, they know what they are doing. More then ever this summer I realized that I have no idea what I am doing, not only when I leave but even as I prepare. I am leaving everyone and everything that I know to explore so great things. I am trusting no one but myself to make decisions, right or wrong. The thing that I think is amazing is although I am taking only one, okay maybe two suitcases, is that the bulk of the things I am taking will not be in there. Most of what I will be taking is in my heart and my head. I am taking knowledge taught to me by so many different people, my parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, teachers, co-workers, and strangers. I am taking with me support from those who have always been there for me. I am taking memories, which will get me through when I need it most. But to me the most important is love from all of my friends and family, their faith and hope in me in making the right decisions as well. I know that there are going to be hard times, in the next month as I get ready, but also in the next year as I travel, get homesick, become fluent, make new friends, and then come back, but I know that everything will work out and that everything happens for a reason, after all, that is what this summer (and my life) has taught me.

Until next time!